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Everytime someone mischaracterizes Goat i legit loose my mind like i go fucking crazy.
Anyways, need the people to understand that Goat sucks ass and is horrible in so many ways but he's nota fucking bigot and he understands the importance of individuality and how important genuine relationships are. He doesn't rlly fuck with that, he'd rather hop around from chick to chick but that doesn't mean he doesnt see value in actual real romantic relationships.
So yeah while i feel like Goat would 100% pull some "oh yeah girl on girl action!" If he saw lesbian chicks in the wild he wouldn't start spouting disgusting terrible shit like "theyre fathers must've abused them harr harr" like come on. Come on. We all know thats a Jen or Fruity move. Leave Goat out of this plzzzz. Sobbing and shitting myself.
#this is targeted but not aggressively#i am the number 1 goat understander numba 1 goat fan nobody is aloud to get away with unjust slander#get his ass for the āunderage midget pornā#thats what we need to be concerned about#dogma2323#this is insane i just woke up plz ignore me#downtown#goat#downtown mtv#mtv downtown#throwing up#cartoonposting
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I went back to watch the moment about Bad bringing up purgatory and really itās just that everyone is confused and Bad needs to explicitly say if he is canonically on or off the island without some weird loop hole that gives him both lores on the both islands for one character to know.
Now the mini events arenāt always like a lore canon thing but the eggs are in lore majority of the time. This is cause the eggs are lore/rp characters the same way Cucurucho is and the only way they arenāt is when they explicitly say it or the cc says that the info theyāre saying is out of rp.
But this is what happened -
Bad brought up first that he saw Tubbo that day to sunny who had been with Fit the entire day. Then Richarylson questioned him saying āArenāt you meant to not be spiritually projecting rnā and he said āI donāt know what youāre talking aboutā which is just as confusing as what Richas said to him.
Then the others asked a general question just saying how was it and if he was winning not anything about any of the lore aspects. He then later brought up the quesadilla lore stuff with Phil despite it not really being the time or place, as well as him not supposedly being there to the other characters (specifically Fit and Phil think heās kidnapped because he hasnāt clarified and they honestly act like they canāt be bothered asking anymore about it which not gonna blame them on) who all think that he is kidnapped because Bad has evaded the question and not given them an explicit answer.
So the eggs, current quesadilla islanders and the viewers are very confused.
Cause none of it make sense and Badās ā1/3 is in purgatoryā(which is the spiritually projecting thing richas is eluding to) is a struggle rp wise too because how is he meant to participate in lore or rp when heās giving so many mixed signals if he is or isnāt canonically on the island.
Like heās telling the eggs about their parents when theyāre always meant to be in lore, then telling the other islanders that heās on vacation which implies heās not doing lore. So then it looks like meta gaming (because the eggs are just being told info randomly without knowing theyāre getting told ie like a twitch chat that a streamer reads except eggs canāt really ignore it) from the pov of someone who has no clue if itās in rp or not especially when itās told to the eggs who are in rp 24/7. But then even the eggs donāt know if heās actually there or not so they have to come up with a rp opinion about it and now think heās lying about their parents because they arenāt meant to know about it really.
Along with this how come he can only just now separate himself in parts like this(yes things are secret but that raises the question how come he didnāt preemptively do this in purgatory 1), how is he getting the info back and forward from each āpartā of him, how is it even a different part/version of him if heās still in the same dimension(cause travelling back and forward from the island defeats the whole purpose of purgatory 1 and he isnāt a slime so how would he be able to make a clones/another version) and then why is he even telling the kids that information when they are separated from their parents which is just going to make them sad(but it is giving the eggs a rp struggle because not all of them are going to know if they are meant to know that info or not).
But really the real question is why does bad have to be involved in both lores and knowing everything. Itās not as if the others are going to keep everything from him and not tell him. Like when has anyone not ever told people about lore that affects everyone, he will be told everything all he has to do is ask. By the time heās back the photo if the eyed workers will probably still be up as well all he has to do is ask them about it and theyāll give him an answer.
#like bad is the only one everyone is struggling with now bc heās bring back p2 lore to quesadilla and then apparently bads in lore 85% of -#the time and heās not actively clarifying if it is or isnāt lore now#so no one knows where tf heās meant to be even the bloody eggs who should know everything#as well the only one we really know isnāt kidnapped is bagi but idk if thats changed#then we have pac tubbo and etoiles who havent really logged in but when etoiles has he is always talking in meta which is clear bc you know-#when heās in lore mode and bc the topics heās talking about are so meta and never involved the quesadilla lore#qsmp neg#bbh neg#qsmp discourse#<- tags for those who need#also the excuse heās addicted to smp is stupid and concerning if heās addicted then he need to take a break#bc thatās turning weirdly parasocial on his part#like yeah its his friends but then what about when no one is on or when the server is over like he needs to take healthy breaks from the smp
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#regarding the liam and maya situation: i have a lot to say that i cannot express in tags and some of yall are still in a huge denial phase#but as i said the day we first knew about maya's book - im believing her. i believe she is a victim. im believing the victim.#i do trust women who make allegations without explicitly showing proof on social media because thats what i stand for. i rather believe a#liar than believing and abuser. with her; with you; and with every women (and everyone) out there even if i don't like her.#if you have a problem with this value i have: i recommend to unfollow me. because i believe her and that won't change.#and the tiktok she posted acknowledging 1d's fanbase behaviour is not only well-worded; but her non verbal language does match what she is#saying. i hope liam can get out of his addiction and i hope he can recognise his actions to be able to change for good; yes. but that doesn#change what he already did. i have plenty of reasons to believe maya - and seeing so many fellow fans saying shit in her comments like#āyou're a liar until you post proofā āif you're saying the truth then sue himā āthis is pr for the bookā etc etc. insane and concerning.#yall talk like cishet men defending their friends btw. the exact same āargumentsā...... is sad to see other women saying this. it breaks my#heart. and as someone who is studying PR genuinely fuck yall ???? yall don't even know what tf we do yall just blame us for every shit in#the industry when in reality its not our fault all the amount of crap yall say it is our fault. if i ask yall to even define what we do#im sure 99.99% won't even know the difference between PR/Marketing/Publicity. get my name and my fellow PR people out of your shit ??? wtf?#its diabolical to blame this on PR. seriously whatin the actual fuck. it doesn't even make sense????? fuck offffffff#i hope maya henry may find peace; i hope she can recover and overcome as well as possible. im disgusted by the behaviour almost everyone is#having. im not praying for a downfall or hoping bad things on liam but i definitely won't defend any of this. and tbh yall shouldn't either#on the other side: i hope she better not talk in any kind of way about louis/harry situation#but because that would mess stuff up in multiple ways. they don't need to be dragged in this. at all.#we don't need āofficialā denials nor confirmations of people that are not them in any type of way.#anyway... how's the weather i guess#maya henry
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there is a rapidly evolving rhetoric against transgender cowardice that is deeply shaming nd it worries me a lot
#myposts#'medical transition invariably and always will expose u to harm and violence and if it doesnt ur not doing it right'#'medical transition is the single most important thing u can do u have to do it'#what do u mean the first statement makes u hesitant to participate in the second. theres no hesitating in transgenderism#idk man. doesnt seem productive#from like an access barrier perspective or a. compassion toward other people perspective#no consideration for like abusive situations or any other reason someone might not engage w medical institutions#i see ppl who say this act like others are criticizing it because theyre 'forcing people to transition' but tbh#my concern is actually more like. youre making transition seem undesirable and scary and like it will be a negative#ur making it seem like its a loyalty test that is awful but needs to be done#instead of actually promoting it as life saving and vital and doing the political work that entails#ie actually addressing access barriers or abuse or medical trauma or anything really#i guess its easier to sit on the computer and tell other ppl theyre not good enough and especially ahvent suffered enough#making it a point of shame to not be doing X while also portraying X as bad and scary and not doing work to undo the things that make it so#is a bad combination? i think? personally?#its just a bizarre way to talk abt something so positive. as if theres no positives about it.#you just have to do it anyway. for reasons. huh#personally what gets me is that its literally like. yeah if youre a coward theres no room for you. we wont protect or help you.#if youre scared fuck you. heres XYZ reasons to be scared. aww you got scared?? loser#thats what gets me. whats that for what does it accomplish#i mean what is accomplishes is shame but. personally im on the side of the transsexual coward
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Fml. I have mental illnesses for real fhat arent just garden variety anxiety and depression <- sorry it turned into a vent/rant in the tags. The perilous poster
#THIS IS NOTHING IM FINE !!!#i just had to remember earlier that sometimes i dont get to be myself#and i drove through my ahit moms town for no reason#and we got a kitten and of course i feel like the only one reasonably concerned#so idk if my concerns are valid or if im overreacting and i dont know how much of my worry is justified#what if im just being a party pooper?#ANDDDD on top of that i dont know where the kitten is rn. and its fine. ots fine#but my mind keeps flashing me images of him stuck somewhere or hurt or somethinf#and i was supposed to be watching him but i left to make food#but my family keeps going 'oh lets do a small trip' so i dont add anything to the list#and then they get a bunch of bs and i dont get any food#WE DONT NEED COSMIC BROWNIES MAN I NEED TO EAT A REAL MEAL THAT MAKES ME FULL PLEASE GOD#and our older cat hates the kitten and im worried the stress is gonna kill him because hes fucking 19#agghh aaghhhhhhh and i cant keep up with everyone and im overwhelmed and i think im just like#upset because i havnt had real food but fuck man idk what to do about that#i coukd bike down to the store and get a sandwich#but my stupid brain keeps going 'if you leave the kitten will die and its your fault'#even though thats not fuckong correct#and i just. aaghhh. aaghhhhhh#and im overheatinf rn but i cant go to my room bc aforementioned kitten desth prophecies#and i. just. aaghhhh ghhhhrrhhhh ghrrrr#im fine im fine i just need to complain i need to be a bitch#ANDDD im tired cause i coulsnt sleep which isng helping#god ive been having a bunch of panic attacks lately too i stopped having them so much after quitting school
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ive literally never understood antisemitism and i dont think I ever will. literally 0 basis for any of the conspiracy theories. its always just projection from christians.
#'you want to drink blood and control the world' baby girl you ritualistically drink the blood of your god all the time and convinced ppl#that proselytizing was a Positive And Good Thing You Should Do. dont talk about wanting to control the world.#DONT TALK ABOUT WANTING TO CONTROL THE WORLD- WHEN YOU LITERALLY WANT TO DO IT LIKE YOU MAKE IT BLATANTLY#CLEAR I'VE ALWAYS BEEN AWARE OF THIS YOU CAN JUST SMELL THE AUTHORITARIANISM OFF YOUR SUIT#AND THATS EVEN BEFORE WE GET INTO THE ACTUAL POLITICS! ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!#YOU WANT TO CONTROL WOMEN! YOU WANT TO CONTROL PEOPLES SEX LIVES! YOU WANT TO FORCE WOMEN TO GIVE BIRTH!#YOU WANT TO ERADICATE TRANS PEOPLE! YOU HATE PEOPLE OF COLOR! YOU WANT TO CONTROL WHAT BOOKS PEOPLE READ#AND WHAT PEOPLE LEARN IN SCHOOL#YALL L I T E R A L L Y OUT IN THE OPEN SAY YOU WANT TO TURN AMERICA INTO A 'CHRISTIAN NATION'#SHUT THE FUCK UP ABOUT NEW WORLD ORDER AND TRYING TO CONTROL THE WORLD AND STOP FUCKING PROJECTING#IF ANY POLITICIAN HERE SAID THEY WANTED TO MAKE AMERICA A JEWISH NATION YALL WOULD LOSE YOUR SHIT#BUT SUDDENLY ITS FINE WHEN ITS YOUR CAMP???? IT'S ALMOST LIKE YOUR ISSUE ISNT ACTUALLY BEING CONCERNED#ABOUT JEWISH PEOPLE SOMEHOW NEBULOUSLY EFFECTING AND CONTROLLING SOCIETY AND MORE ABOUT YOU WANTING#TO CONTROL SOCIETY AND NEEDING A SCAPEGOAT TO ATTACK SO PEOPLE DONT SEE YOUR ASS FOR WHAT IT IS#i think yall assume that just bc you want to control everything that so does everyone else and you just dont like what values other ppl hav#you should really live and let live. do some fucking shrooms you square. stop trying to control everything and everyone around#you. worry about you. lord knows you aren't being a perfect little christian like you probably tell yourself- not if you're openly#advocating for tearing away peoples rights.
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#stardust speaking !#manga gran is so cute.......................#speaking of the manga. (immediadetly changes the topic to the anime) i need to add aaron too to my multi#my no1 anime oc of all time i think the anime zinkenstill is THE best and if needed thats the one im referencing#cuz just elaving SUCKSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS#when they added aaron in main story. that was for me my friend and the one jp aaron fan#(thinks about how the feathers in his design are djeeta and grans colors) DO U GET MEEEEEEEE#in general i think hes rly neat cuz having someone whos concerned for Djeeta/Grans wellbeing. even if he tends to be negative about it#'ure always like this' <-guy who cares more than anyone#all comes back to the lov in the anime send-off#the manga is cute too w gran comforting the kid but#anime my beloved my everything we need to rewrite the ingame tutorial NOOOWWWWWWW CYGAMEESSSSSS#idk what happens in the novel i only own the loki fenrir spread one <-normal person#the fact they never translated them grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
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Unfortunately that kitten had to go back to her foster mom who. I am pretty sure is going to be fired from the shelter we work with because holy fuck she was The worst -_- god she was cute tho im glad i got to spend time with her today
#like at first she was here with her mom who was a beautiful grey cat#but. she was not doing well. something was very wrong. she didnt move at all the entire day#she had brown pus in her eyes#her breathing was uneven. all she could do was move her eyes around really#so we called her to say we need you to come pick her up and get her checked out because she is really sick#and this bitch snaps at us like 'okay well actually shes fine' and just complains at us for making her come back to get her#and we're like. ok man like your cat is very ill sorry for being concerned about not only her health but her babys health too#let ALONE the health of allll the other animals that come into our store + families petting her that may bring back the illness to their own#animals...#anyway so they finally come back to pick her up and its two of them. one is level headed and the other was the bitch lol#like my coworker had taken them out and was sanitizing the cage and she goes 'well thats STUPID theyre from the same home'#and we start to explain that it doesnt fckin matter were doing what we can to keep the kitten as healthy as possible#but luckily het sister or whoever it was cut her off and was like 'nono thats what they should do. thats what vets do im glad theyre doing#that' and then she was like yelling and yada yada yada#anyway. they FINALLY turn to leave but just before she turns around and goes 'oh by the way i brought another cat to replace the mom.#just dont expect him to be bubbly since you expect cats to be so energetic. hes 9'#like. first of all. its fucking insane that you briught another cat in the first place cuz what happens if the kitten is already sick now#second of all. she adds 'also they havent met each other yet. bye'#LIKE WHAT!!!!!!! THE FUCK DO YOU M3AN THEY HAVENT MET EACH OTHET#YOU JUST LEAVE US WITH ONE POSSIBLY INFECTED KITTEN ANNND A SENIOR CAT THAT HASNT EVEN MET THIS KITTEN???!?!?!?#and were supposed to just leave them together overnight and hope for the best???? BITCH#so yeah anyway we ended up having to call the shelter who called the foster mom Again. thankfully her sister showed up to take them both#but then her fckin sister didnt even tell her she was supposed to take bith cats it was sooo. what a night man#just wow lol#thank u 4 coming to my pet store rant
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Guys, please, polls aren't that deep. They are the end all be all and pop up every month. Please do yourself a favor and take a break if they are affecting you They are meant to be silly and fun. So what if one ship you like doesn't win, that doesn't mean anything. Just means more ships exist and the fandom is growing, and we should celebrate that. Not get mad, fight, hold stuff, threaten, etc. over them okay? Have fun, be silly, enjoy your blorbos Remember, you can mute works/tags and just block things and post if you have xkit. Which is a real lifesaver Relax, go to your favorite blog and maybe share some ideas/aus/fun stuff and have a good time instead!
#space.text#I love scarian#But we need more wlw ships#cause I do in fact love women too#But seeing being not even joking about withholding things and being actually upset or angry is so concerning#Its okay! have fun laugh it off#Go bombard your fave blogs that love the same ship as you with some fun ideas#you will feel better and you will be talking to someone who also loves that ship and your ideas#Thats what a lot of us are here for anyways we love getting your aus#thoughts or headcanons in our ask its great#but take care of yourself first silly internet polls don't matter#If anything is sent to me tho just know I'm about to pass out and who knows when I will reply I'm utterly slow at replies#I love them tho
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Apparently there's a fic reading challenge thing this year, but after doing a quick skim of the goals... we don't think we'll be touching it with a ten-foot stick. Some of these goals put a VERY bad taste in our mouth. The idea of a "diversity checklist" isn't supposed to be... literal, we don't think? No? We're remembering that one quote about "listening to people of color being like eating your vegetables for white activists" and we're feeling like it may actually have been understating whatever the hell is going on here.
#we speak#also really funny to be seeing shit like āread fic from a fandom with under 250 worksā. buddy we're WRITING for one of those#but also like. āread a fic where the main character is BIPOCā. āread a fic where the main character is neurodivergent"#āread a fic that passes the bechdel testā.#like we get the INTENT we guess but we're not in the target audience AT ALL#and a whole fuckin lot of the goals here are very romance focused up against us a guy who deliberately filters out ships#we're also really concerned that āpasses the bechdel testā is a bar for fic but also we know The Scene here#and āpassing the mako mori testā. is indeed a difficult one to find in a lot of fandoms#as someone who tends to like female characters we notice this. A Fucking Lot#we are so insanely picky with fic bc even with ao3's tagging system we need to slog through dozens of fics to find one good one#and a lot of the time we. REALLY don't have the patience for fic that doesn't have decent depictions for the gals#you have no clue how much zel da fic especially we drop for being Really Fucking Weird About Gender (in a bad way)#sometimes we forget that people exist in bigger fandoms that actually have fic reading habits like this#we feel like we're in another dimension. what do you mean you guys live like this#also what. does ādeals heavily (and healthily) with a mental illnessā mean. you guys arent just reading this to eat ur vegetables right?#...right???#anyways reading through things like āread fics with all the major LGBTQIA2 identitiesā is giving us hives#if you read our fic then we beg of you read it because it sounds like it has a nice plot not just like. because Some Guy is ace or intersex#please. gender identity should NOT be that much of a priority. read through and flag on the weird gender shit and go āoh thats queer!ā#or āoh thats like meā or āoh (whatever)ā but please. there are so many things here more relevant than shit like sexuality.#we need to go read through our fics and make sure we dont have any overly modern lingo in there#if you want to know about a characters sexuality or gender identity figure it out yourself from. fuck we dont know. psychic beams.#though we rationally know the reason that things in modern queer spaces are so often Like This its still poison to our brain#and we want nothing to do with it#negative chatter
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It seems to really be hitting my mum just how young she was when she had me in light of her upcoming birthday
#+Extra#like on the one hand she feels old cus its a big birthday coming up but on the other hand it seems to only just be hitting her just#how young she is to have a 22 year old daughter which is frankly old news at this point she was always too young just in denial#we had a very odd conversation last night in which she started off by saying that my soon go be 18 yr old brother and the 19 yr old#definitely arent responsible enough to watch the kids for a couple of hours while she gets her hair but then that its ridiculous that an#under 18 yr old (her phrasing) cannot open a bank account without a parent because she was entrusted with an entire human being at that#age and so he should be able to open a bank account by himself and i was listening like no thats the wrong conclusion its the opposite the#adults in your life shouldve been more concerned about you also what a revisionist recount saying that no one was concerned about you#having a baby at the age and it was probably because my dad was an adult so they felt they had no need to be concerned when i know all of#your family tried to express concerns that you wouldnt hear which led to years of animosity during my childhood staff at your college also#expressed concern as did your friends you just dont wanna admit that now. also how can they not be trusted with the kids for a couple of#hours when youre 15 minutes down the road as basically adults when 1 is going off to uni in September supposedly and the other has#basically moved out already and i was left entirely alone with the kids at younger than 15?#the sexism and gender stereotyping continues to perplex me#anyway hoping no one got to the end of this rant to add that im once again reminded that my birthday is actually just a day for my mum to#mourn the youth she missed out on by having a baby stupid young
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I watched this two hour long vid on cannibalism in media and I gotta say it was so refreshing to watch 2 hours of content that at no point whines about """"problematic"""" aspects of media like anyone watches CANNIBALISM on screen and decides to EAT PEOPLE about it and then got treated to a bunch of OTHER taboo subjects being brought up in a thoughtful, media analysis way that was interesting and beautifully written and delivered. They've got some stuff on Lolita that I think would be worth the watch because I won't get a 2 hour lecture on how fucking 12 year olds is bad as if the writer of the novel didn't know that and wrote that guy as a fucked up nasty on purpose and it's not the books fault creeps decided it was a romance because they've got piss poor reading comprehension, or movie comprehension, or idea comprehension depending on what Lolita media they got into or even just heard about.
I gotta say after years of "if you READ INCEST you want to FUCK YOUR SISTER" on Tumblr it was a delight for the creator to skip that bullshit and get into what incest in media REPRESENTS. Also no accusations of "glorifying" anything when the definition of that for those that use that term is "depicts X Bad Thing in Any Way I Don't Like (which is EVERY way)." Finally some good fucking media analysis that doesn't try and hand me a lecture about how Murder Is Bad as if people kill people because they watched it on TV one time and it totally altered their entire morality system because that's how these types think "problematic" shit in media works because they're sad little babies who need moral lessons spelled out for them like media for 6 years olds since adults obviously can't be trusted to think Bad Things in media ARE in fact not good.
#winters ramblings#call me by your name cropped up and i was like if i hear ONE MORE THING about that problematic age gap ill LOSE IT#its not that i disagree but for fucks sakes can you at least analyze the ACTUAL movie and not your thoughts in the characters ages please#and the amount of horror stuff that came up i half expected a lecture on that too and didnt get one like THANK you#we ALL know cannibal Holocaust is an awful racist movie witH ACTUAL animal death but do we seriously need a lecture on āglorifyingā death#or murder or whatever the fuck because thats what that movie CLAIMS to criticize by doing the exact shit theyre criticizing#but ACTUALLY killing those animals not fake killing them like normal movies but still horror doesnt glorify murder for fucks sake#and if youre so BRAIN DEAD you cant watch a movie about fucked up subjects without shrieking about Bad Things then#do us ALL a favor and stick with steven universe from what i watched it was good and its for kids so youll get all the moral lessons#you desire. then go watch other kids media if you cant be fucking trusted to read about cannibalism or incest or murder or whatever#without IMMEDIATELY being concerned you or someone else will Do The Bad Movie or TV or Book Things because people dont have brains i guess#you just pour Hannibal in there and now were all professional chefs eating people who were rude to us thats how media works I guess
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#i think. maybe ill go to bed before 8 tonight#bc my brain. i can't deal with it. and im tired#but i should not do that bc i have things i need to do#like. theres an application due the 11th. but fuck it i might not send it bc fucking whats the point#why has it become so impossible to function? i mean. i kno why but its still annoying#and its like so crazy bc i just feel like im curled up on the floor with the broken pieces of my life and nothing terribles even happened#from an outside perspective its perfectly fine and good my insides have just rottef out#like i had to spend most of today plotting an experiment and i feel bad bc im just so. im so worried that looking after yhis thing is going#to hurt. its going to drain away hours of my time. i dont kno how long it take to deal with every single day for 2 weeks#ill have to water it at 7 and 5 and take measurements all day probably and im very worried about the amount of damage thats going to do#when it already feels like i should b careful where i step. and i feel bad bc im prob such a bummer to hang around like im so sullen faced#and i just dont care. like we had to make a decision bc we could do one thing or another and it would b answering 2 diff questions#and my boss was like. well which do u find most interesting. and i just. i dont care im more concern with the amount of psychic damage this#will inflict upon me so i just dont really give a fuck and that makes me so sad bc like at one point this probably would have been fun#and now im just bitter and it hurt and i jusr want to lay down and not get up#and im like how the fuck am i supposed to find a phd position when the enthusiasm for what i do now has completely burned thru me?#like hi yes r u looking for a new student? im dizzy and my life is falling apart even tho everythings my brains just on fire#but ya kno i think id b an asset to your lab! sigh... itll b fine i kno it will bc it has to b#ill visit the school i wanna go to. hopefully not make myself look like too much of an unstable moron and then leave this place#dragg my bleeding soul across the country to shrivel up in a different area code#somethings gotta give but lets hope it waits a couple months ya kno#ugh. im just tired. i should sleep. i didnt sleep enough last night. and i didnt relax on the weekend so ive got that i don't kno what day#it is type of vertigo. but tomorrow will b better. it will bc i dont want it to b worse#unrelated#i just want to study things that made me feel something. y doesn't that have to b so hard?#let me study slime. endless days alone with the green goo
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My bffās bf said something stupid and misogynistic and itās 3am and Iām realizing I should have been angrier in the moment lmao
#It was like kind of a joke?#I know itās dumb but what the fuck was that#While talking about how you need to worry more about what you put in your vagina he said something about sitting on your balls being worse#And I was like ?????? Hello????#In no version of reality where having a vagina and ovaries is going to be easier or less painful#I just mentioned how those arenāt even close and how you literally have to constantly worry about yeast infections and UTI#Now I wish Iād listed more things like just yearly gyno visits and Pap smears#IM JUST REMEMBERING#WE WERE JUST TALKING ABOUT HOW PEOPLE WERE STUPID ABOUT THINGS THEY DONT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT#SPECIFICALLY REFERRING TO COMMENTS ON VAGINAS AND VAGINAL HEALTH#AND THATS THE CONFIDENT ASS COMMENT HE GAVE LMAO FUCK#I was so exhausted but damn i hope I have the ability to point this out if he does it again#Like I think something like this has happened before and Iām deeply concerned#Like implying something is easier because of being a woman#Heās progressive but I get such a bad feeling heās still picked up on some subtle incel shit
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pissed off when my instagram algo pushes adhd influencer content to me. like i DO have adhd but im still pissed about it
#idk how to articulate what makes me irritated about adhd influencer culture#there is an aura. a quality#everything feels too general and simultaneously too hyper spesific#it kinda seems like these ppl got adhd dx and then#started explaining every single thing they have ever done or not done as being an adhd symptom without doing research#or the research they DO is watching each others videos#idk if thats valid to say but thats what it feels like#i think we all shpuld get more educated on things. on patterns we may be in#idk i think part of this is just my exhaustion with labels#its not enough to simply say I DO THIS THING and I NEED HELP WITH IT and HERE IS HOW I DEAL WITH IT#it all has to have some huge greater meaning. it all has to be a part of your Label#i think thats a crock of shit#cos tbh once u get more than 2 labels#ppl stop caring and also ur making it up as far as they r concerned#this is true of physical ailments too#even tho thats an area where i think labels actually are helpful lmao#physical thinga are just so much different than mental things#im not saying NOTHING should have a name or a label#its just too much#we gotta stop honing in#we gotta play it more fast and loose#and just do what works
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Nothing brings me closer to the edge of "huh maybe I do have a touch of the autism" than shopping
#anne speaks#as in i fucking DESPISE it unless it's specifically catered to me#i need to be warned about it in advance. i need to know what time we're going. ideally i need to know what time we're done#i have to mentally prepare myself and dedicate a specific amount of energy for the act in advance#and so help me gods if i bring my mum i will full on rage quit within two hours#she's one for 'oh this piece of clothing might be good for you' then holds up the least me thing in the world#or goes all 'uhh i dont know...' concerned if it either shows too much cleavage or is not neat and feminine enough#and then on top of that is like#okay but that costs money so how about we go to an extra store that you werent prepared for to see if they have the same thing but cheaper#you CANNOT add to my mental list of what im expecting im running FAST out of my prepped energy and i WILL start snapping at u#she asked what i would like for my bday and i was like 'well okay i do wanna refresh my wardrobe a little'#she asked what im thinking of style wise but like a) how do i say mum you cant buy me clothes without me feeling like a silicon valley wife#and b) how do i say 'i want butch i want gender i want playful i miss my theatre days i want artist i want boho'#anyway. i have now been convinced to go shopping with my sister who is a lot more tolerable bc she's young and hip and less scared to play#but im still like 'okay what time? okay give me a second to think if i want to go? i need to mentally adjust'#and my mum kept saying 'oh you can go then and after youll come back together' THATS NOT A TIME MOTHER#i need to know! when im going!! so i know how much time i have to mentally prepare#anyway. this is my essay on why shopping makes me autistic#there is Very Little that does this to me. usually i embrace chaos#but oh man. yeah no thanks#anyway fingers crossed everyone that i come back from town looking artsy and gender
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